Lesson 22 : Don't Run To The Past

Lately, i keep on listening to Adele songs, Someone like you..Somehow, i think the lyrics does relate to me..Not all part of it, of course..It's make me thought of someone who I hasn't since last year..Cause last time I checked, she told that she already engaged ( this is the part that i relate to,haha..) 

When I heard the news, well I was kind of happy at first, a little bit of sad, but still wish that she happy with her life..The news actually really helped me to get me up running forward, rather than keep on clinging to the past..Cause I know I won't have another chance to be together..

Well, what past is past..Nothing we can do to change it, so just hope for a better future later on..This time, I guess I really has get over her..Thanks for the news, it does help me..

Never mind I find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you

Lesson 21 : Sometimes it just you

Having a hard time this weeks. Everything seems so wrong, even though it is normal for them. Unfortunately, that doesn't occur to me. Sad, isn't it. I think it's all started when the person actually hit the limit of my patience level. I do have limit too. You don't simply said things and never consider what people felt about it.

Today, they suppose to make a surprise for my friend and me. Just because i still feel very irritated about something, i choose not to show up. Luckily i heard they were planning the surprise. If not, i would be there with someone who I don't want to be with.

It's kind of pathetic, doesn't it. I rather eat bread than having ayam masak merah,nasi ayam and all just because I was still angry with something. I hope they enjoy their meals themselves..And thanks for the surprise party, but sorry because I never show up..

Lesson 20 : Problems??

I tried to list down the problems i been having for this semesters..Seems like it's just keep growing and growing..Maybe it just because i never really did face with it,but just run along with it until i cannot go on anymore..

Some of us have different ways to deal with problems, some succeed, some end up with failure. I try to deal mine with facing it, but somehow i get irritated by it and i choose to be silent..And if you ask me did that help, i will answer you right now..It is not..

pics credit to kaushik.net

Skipping Lesson : Part 4.2

Haven't been able to write for about 2 months now..Such a long break..But still, I'm gonna take some break again for about 2 weeks before I start writing something again..hehe..See you after two weeks..

p/s: For girls who want to buy some nice clothes with reasonable price, you can check this page..Buat iklan jap..hehe

Musical Monday #1

Ok so for this time, i did not continue this one as a lesson. This just a random post to relax my mind from everything that has happen lately. So,basically on Monday I will post some music video and told you some story from the song that I post here. For the first Musical Monday, I decide to post Tattoo from Jordin Spark.




And what are the story behind this songs..Em,nothing much really..It just that this songs reminds me when I first had my confession to the girl I like. It was the first time I ever said I like someone directly..This songs was played on the radio when I confessed to her..So,every time I heard this songs, I always remember my first time confessing about my feeling to the girl I once love..

That's is basically the story of this song. Not very interesting I guess,but still it is a sweet memory for me..
Later..=D


If I live every moment

Wont change any moment

Still a part of me and you

I will never regret you

Lesson 19 : My Snowball Collection Part 1

For this post, I would like to show off some of my snowball collection..It not much really,cause I just been to 6 different country..And sometimes it just money problem that make me never been able to bought them..huhu..

Sintra,Portugal

Dubai

Berlin, Germany

Kazan,Rusia

Madrid,Spain

Actually I never been to Kazan yet, but my friend gave it to me..I have one more from Egypt, but something happen, so I decide to throw away the ball..huhu..Maybe if I go to Egypt someday I will buy the same snowball like the one I throw away..Who knows,hehe..

'll never be the same 

if we ever meet again
Won't let you get away 

said if we ever meet again

Lesson 18 : Don't Lie to Me

So,from now on i started counting the days to go back home. How i miss home so much already. Can't wait to get back already. But this doesn't have to do with anything I'm going to write. I just want to talk about my disappointment about lying.

I hate when people start mixing some truth to make their story seems real, but all they want to do is to make you believe that their aren't lying, when they are. You know it is the best way to lie right, by mixing some truth in your lie,make your story more believable. This is just how lie start, when people told the story half true, and half lie. By the end of the day, many people start to believe whatever crap their see or hear,without even thinking about it. I means, come on guys..How do you believe all the conspiracy theory,the arrival stories, and even something that more absurd than that.

If you really thinking that you helping your religion by giving away all this video,story and all the things that i cannot imagine about, how about you start to help yourself. You don't need to believe all those story, they are just like fairytale story for adult or teenagers. It might be a little scary, but still it is a fairytale,because it is not real. All made up.

And if you asking me how do I know all this made up, well I don't really know. Do you know who made up all the fairytale story, mostly you don't know to right. When we was a child, we might be thinking that all the story is real,but as we grow up,we realize that the story is nothing but a fantasy. To entertain us.

I'm kind of sad thinking how easy people manipulated us. Just spouting some truth is enough for us to change our opinion, to believe, and to be scared until we can even see the lie hidden in the story. We believe all the story are real,the video are real,the facts all true, but in fact it isn't that way. There are some video like 'Manusia Akhir Zaman, The Arrival, Penggunaan nama MOHD,' and many more I don't want to write here is just a hoax. I don't know who made up all the facts, I was offended by the way with the MOHD things,because that is the way my name is written. They post it saying that MOHD meaning some dog or what i don't really remember,but after that i searched,and it seemed that MOHD does not mean that,it just the same with Muhammad. And Muhammad certainly doesn't mean any dogs,and if someone started to make some facts like that, let kill him right away,okay..hehehe


But anyway,try to be more productive. Don't too easily believe all the things you see or heard on the internet or books,seems like nowadays there a lot of way to spread to lie. Just think carefully,ok..=D



picture link www.thadguy.com

Lesson 17 : Let's Take a Walk First,Ok? (Part 1)

Okay, so for this post I decide to make it into part,because in this entry I want to post some picture about some place that I have been before..So,for the first part, let me show around Spain..

Gaudi Park..really unique one

Barcelona stadium entrance..

Now in madrid

Well,basically, that's it for now..I just pick some random pic from my album and post it here..haha. If you want some history about Spain, I totally forget about them already..It's been month since I visit Spain..

And maybe after this I try write something about the place I'm studying..Cause don't want to disappoint my blogger friend who request it..=D

Lesson 16 : Teh Cinta

Sekarang dah nak masuk bulan Syaaban sekarang ni.. Tiba-tiba teringat kenangan masa tengah masak sekali dengan rakan-rakan satu batch untuk jamuan hari raya tahun lepas tu..

Time tu aku dengan geng-geng satu batch aku tengah nak masak nasi untuk open house batch aku. Kerja aku senang je,buat nasi pelangi. Lagipun ramai jugakla yang kena buat nasi tu sekali. Lepas ada sorang kawan aku ni,tugas dia kena buat air untuk open house tu nanti. Tapi kawan aku ni pulak,dia segan sikit dengan pompuan,lagipun sebenarnya kawan aku saja letak dia bertugas sekali dengan pompuan tu,saje-saje nak pasang-pasangkan orang..hehe..

Sebab dia tak nak malu sangat,dia pegi buat air tu dekat tempat kitorang buat nasi tu. Pastu adalah kawan aku saje nak menyakat dorang,kata dorang dua buat teh cinta..hehe..Kesian jugakla kat kawan sorang tu..Dipendekkan cerita,air yang dorang buat tu,awal-awal dia manis sangat rasa dia. Lepas tu kawan aku pun adjust la sampai rasa dia tawar la plak. Aku time tu pun saje la nak buat lawak konon,aku pun cakaplah "Memang teh cinta betullah,manis dia kejap je,hehe", dan pastu ada sorang kawan aku balas, "Ko ingat semua kisah cinta macam ko ke,kejap je manis dia," pastu semua orang gelak ramai-ramai..hehe..

Tea of love..

Tapi, kalau nak diikutkan,memang masa aku cakap benda tu,aku kaitkan dengan diri aku sebenarnya. Sebab cinta yang aku rasa masa dulu,manis dia macam teh cinta tu la. Sekejap je manisnya,lepas tu tawar yang dah tak boleh dibetulkan lagi. Apapun,semua dah jadi. Aku pun dah tak nak kisah lagi pasal cinta buat masa sekarang. Rasanya mungkin sebab tu aku jumpa dengan dia. Supaya aku tak terlibat lagi dengan cinta sebelum kahwin ni. Kalau aku minat dengan someone pun nanti,aku just senyap jela pasni. Aku tak nak dah kot luahkan perasaan terus kat orang yang aku minat. Banyak buruk dari baiknya aku rasa kalau aku buat benda tu dalam masa yang terdekat ni..

picture link

  

And I just hope you know,
That if you say, Good-bye today,
I'd ask you to be true
Cause the hardest part of this,
Is leaving you... 

 

Lesson 15 : I Like It When....

I like it when people start to questioning themselves
I like it when people to start to care for their surrounding
I like it when people start thinking about other before themselves
I like it when people aren't arguing about something that isn't important
I like it when people pretending not to care for something,but indeed they care
I like it when people finally understand each other
I like it when people have respect for others
And what I really like the most is
When those people do,
What I like.

But life is not about you only, so don't expect for others to do all the things you like.

p/s: Do you like me??..=P

Lesson 14 : Are You Afraid of Changing

Just finished 1/5 of my exam. Still has 4 more to go. But enough about that first, let take a little break, won't we.
Today I just watched the South Park latest episode, You Getting Old.. Somehow, I think it is the saddest episode ever made.

Their use themselves as a topic for this episode. How their felt about their cartoon, or so I think. Their think maybe it about time for them to end South Park. It's a great show actually, I like how their make their parody of some show, and somehow it's more fun to watch than the real show.

But,as the saying goes, all great things must come to an end, so South Park is not an exception also. I think they made a great show for over 15 years already, I think it's great for a TV shows to reach that far. I would like to see more of South Park, but if they decided to kill the shows, there nothing we can do.

Still, South Park forever..I love the shows so much, and I hope it will still running.

Well, I've been afraid of changing
Cause I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older I'm getting older too
Yes I'm getting older too, 

Lesson 13 : Hi Mum

Link

It nice to know your mom will always be there for you..

Who should I give my love to?  My respect and my honor to 
Who should I pay good mind to? After Allah And Rasulullah 
Comes your mother Who next? Your mother 
Who next? Your mother And then your father 

Lesson 12 : I Hate How Much I Love You,JUNE

Okay, so now lets chill for a while. It's June, and it is the most happening month for me here. Why is that so??
Because in June,it is also known as the EXAM month..scary ain't it..huhuhu..

my situation..not exactly,haha

So, even though the weather is so nice out there, I need to stay in my room to prepare for my exams this month..Pray for me, I'll be finishing all the exam on 27th of June. Then I'll  be back to Malaysia on 15th July..Oh yeah, can't wait to see my new niece..She so cute..I want to play some songs for her later..hehe..

And,to entertain all of you who just become my follower, I upload this video of me playing The Only Exception by Paramore..hope you all enjoy it..=D
(p/s:actually I made this for my first follower on my first blog,since I have no time for recording now, I just post this one ok..hehe)

but darling you are the only exception,
you are the only exception

Lesson 11 : Why Don't You Learn From Your Mistake

I was just checking on for update in the facebook, and the I noticed someone post something that catch my eye. So I decided to click on the link given. It was a blog entry. When I was reading the post, I felt so shocked about the entry. It's was not suppose to be told to anyone.

To me, if you have done that kind of thing before,it's should be between you and Allah. You don't have to tell everyone about your dark side. Everyone has done mistake in their life, I have too. We should not never be proud of our sin. It is not something to be proud of and it's not something to be told about.

Here is some stories that i find interesting about the issue above. I hope the girl will delete the post and returned to the right path. Just remember, Allah is the most forgiving.



Tunjukkanlah Kami ke Jalan Yang Lurus
Jalan Orang-orang Yang Kau Beri Nikmat
Bukan Jalan Mereka Yang Kau Murkai
Dan Bukan Pula Jalan Mereka Yang Sesat

Lesson 10 : Studying or Steadying?

Right now, I'm supposed to be in the mood of study. My exams is so near that I'm to afraid to read the book and look at the slide or gross anymore.

I'm tired looking at this

and this

and also this

So, instead of studying back all those things, I did this..haha..

                                                   

This is the note I took from miss survivor, hehe. I may have some notes wrong there, so if you're watching this, can you please tell me what wrong with my play. I'm still new actually with keyboard..



bila cinta ini, tak lagi bermakna
yang ku rasa kini, hanyalah nestapa

Lesson 9 : Giving up is easy,but what does it taste?

    Have u ever think to give up at certain time. Well, if I were to ask myself that, my answer will be yes. I always thinking of giving up of everything that I do, but when I refresh my mind and think about it again, I will try to push myself forward.

Remember their songs.Siti don't give up.hehe

    Giving up is easy to do, but what will it do to you. Will it do any good. I don't think so. When you let yourself give up, you just giving an excuse for yourself of what you could do, but you wouldn't just because you so scared or think it the best way. 

    I know sometimes when things are not happen to be of what we have planned, but it doesn't give us a room to give up. Human grows up by pushing themselves to their limit. Thats how you grow,thats how I grow, and thats how we grow as a human. We going through a lot of obstacle during our life, sometimes we fail, sometimes we succeed, but what count is the effort we put into doing it. If you fail without even trying, you fail completely.

    As a human being, we will always be tested by many things. You can never escape from being tested. But that is how you will grow. Do you know how hard for a chrysalids to fly as a butterfly. It has to go through all that so it can fly beautifully. So do you. You have to undergoes all those harsh things, for you to fly beautifully too.

You can fly too.

picture credit,here and here

It's not a question, but a lesson learn in time

It's something unpredictable,but in the end it's right

Skipping Lesson : Part 3

"Tengok movie jap lu"

Huhu..baru pas habis tengok cerita Detective Conan. Agak best la jugak cerita baru conan ni. Tapi kisah kali ni agak menyedihkan kalau nak banding dengan cerita-cerita live action dia sebelum ni.

Tapi yang tak puas hatinya kat cni,sebab tengok cerita ni guna subtitle Indon. Subtitle English dia tak boleh pakai langsung, direct translation, takde tukar susunan ayat pun. Last-last terpaksa jugala guna subtitle Indon tu, sebab tu paling teratur subtitle die.

pascal yang comel..

Cerita dia kali ni memang agak menyedihkan, tapi tetap tak boleh lawan lagi cerita 1 liter of tear tu la. Cerita tu sedih sangat-sangat la. Tapi tetap puas hati dengan cerita Conan yang baru ni, walaupun cuma satu teknik je yang pembunuh tu pakai.

Anyways,hope to see another Conan in live action. Can't wait for that..

the killer is you.yes,you.

"In my head there's only you now, This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe, And this seems real to me"

Lesson 8 : You not pretty anymore

Just now, I went and saw you in your blog. and I think that, you not so charming like you used to be. But I was happy to see you that way, cause I really think that you have change so much than before.

Now you more timid in your appearance. And i really like to see you that way. Even if you're not as beautiful as you were before, but you're better now. It's amaze me how you could change so drastically. Maybe you find the right one that guide to to the right path, and you follow the path.

Or maybe, it's just because it is you. But,whatever it is, I'm glad that you change. I'm glad that the person I use to hate, has become a better person. And somehow I'm a little bit jealous of you, because you really changes.

Unlike me, which keep on telling myself that is your fault I fall this way.Not even trying to get up and get this over with. Anyways, happy birthday to you. Wish you become a good doctor like you always dream of..

i didn't change to 19 and 21 coz it just to hurt to remember

"That's what you get when you let your heart win"

Lesson 7 : About Life

Life is something that we all borrowed from our god. What do we do to deserve this magnificent things. Nothing. We done nothing to deserve this. Yet He still lending us this life,to show how much He care and love us.

And yet, what we do to show our gratitude to Him. Do we show our respect to Him. Did we show to others, how is the way of life that He told us to live. What have we done.

Just a small reminder to myself.

Lesson 6 : I wasn't for you,You weren't for me

 It funny how life can change

In just a year

Many things has happened

But for me

Mostly there are bad things that happens

But still , here am I

Still standing , even though the road was a bit harsh for me

But I choose to move on..

Yes, I know maybe someone will just come and told me,

It my own fault that I fall that way,

I choose to fall, and you just can do nothing about that,

All that talk that you give me, sometimes it just made me annoyed,

Cause you just talk, you not in my shoes,

How would you say you know what I 'm going through,

You not me, you don’t know how it feels..

But still, I have to thanks all of you that care for me,

Cause yeah, even though sometimes the words are hurting,

But most of the time it still motivate me,

To just keep on pressuring myself,

And yes, still I slipped somehow,

Cause during that time,

I still has some problem within me

A love that I couldn’t forget,

No matter how many times it hurt,

Still it is unforgettable,

Even after seeing something that I don’t want to see

Still there is love for that someone

But it alright now,

Just go on with you way,

I will not  chasing you anymore,

Cause is it useless to chase someone,

Who wont stop no matter how hard you hold her,

No matter how you do,

She will still run away,

Cause it just the way she is..

Nah , enough with all this

Is not that I'm still thinking about this,

It just that I regret it so much,

Because just how this one decision I make,

Ruining almost everything in my life..

I accept all of this as a lessons for me,

Yeah , it is very valuable lessons,

And I don’t think I want to go all over it again,

I don’t think I can stand for it again ,huhu..

Skipping Lesson : Part 2

Kali ni nak buat post dalam bm. Sebab banyak ayat yang nak dipakai untuk luahan hati kali ni tak tahu nak translate macam mana..huhu..

Sebenarnya nak cakap tentang hari ibu. Dalam fb,blog, dan vlog, nampak ada ramai yang wish mak dorg sempena hari ibu ni. Aku suka benda-benda macam ni. Dia buat kita lebih hargai apa yang kita ada. Tapi apa yang aku tak berapa senang sangat sebenarnya bila tengok ada orang yang tulis camni,"buat apa nak sambut hari ibu,hari-hari pun hari ibu.kenapa nak bagi satu hari special utk ibu ko". Bagi aku orang yang tulis macam ni fikiran dia sempit, tak pun dia duduk dengan ibu dia setiap hari.

berlainan dengan aku,aku duduk jauh dari ibu aku. So, aku tak dapatlah nak bagi pape yang special utk ibu aku setiap hari. Tapi aku tetap ingat mak ayah aku setiap hari,walaupun aku jarang call dorang. Aku tak suka dorang yang cakap macam tu sebab dorang macam kondem orang yang sambut hari ibu tu. Bagi aku,tak salah menggembirakan ibu kita. Lagipun rasanya ibu kita sendiri tahu bila hari ibu (mgkin ada jg yang tak tahu) dan bila kita wish kat ibu kita,bukankah kita telah menggembirakan ibu kita. Bagi aku,aku jenis tak banyak cakap sangat,jadi aku tunggu jela hari-hari macam ni untuk cakap kat mak aku,yang aku sayangkan dia.

Lepas tu,boleh-boleh plak aku terbaca satu artikel yang cakap sambut hari ibu ni haram. Aku sedih gila dengan pemikiran orang-orang melayu kita sekarang ni. Terlalu paranoid dengan benda-benda macam ni. Aku harap kalau orang yang percaya pun dengan benda ni,tolongla jangan pergi cakap benda ni dengan mak korang bila mak korang tanya kenapa korang tak wish dia(aku tak rasa mak korg akan tanya pun kalau korg x wish,btl tak?). Sebab korang macam secara tak langsung akan cakap yang mak korang ni jahil agama, yang memang akan buat mak korang sedih. Tapi tak tahulah plak kalau mak korang akan pikir yang tahap agama korang dah terlampau tinggi,sampai mak korang respect korg sbb tu..

Tapi apapun, main point yang aku nak cakap kat sini adalah tak salah sambut hari ibu. Kita ni sebagai manusia,kita ada sifat pelupa. Sebab tu kena sentiasa diingatkan. Rasa-rasanya Allah wajibkan solat 5 waktu tu untuk apa.Supaya setiap hari kita ingat Allah.Allah tahu makhluk-Nya ni sifat macam mana.Kena sentiasa diingatkan. Bila dah ada benda-benda macam ni,kita diingatkan tentang betapa berharganya ibu kita. Sedangkan ada hari macam ni pun ada orang lagi yang tak nak hargai ibu dia,cuba kalau takde. Tengok berapa kali je korang akan layan ibu korang macam korang buat masa hari ibu ni. Kan elok sambut hari ibu,semua buat ucapan best2 utk gembirakan mak dorang.

Rasanya tu jela kot..dan untuk penutup,saya nak ucapkan selamat hari ibu untuk mak saya. Terima kasih kerana jaga saya dari kecik sampai besar. Jadi teman berbual saya,buat lawak2 dengan saya,saya gembira bila dengan mama..thanks ma..

Skipping Lesson : Part 1

now addicted to Dewa songs..
'Sedang ingin bercinta'..haha..Quite an old school songs..

Lesson 5 : Being single

Its been a long time since i'm being single. It does feel kind of weird to get rid of the feeling that i feel when i was in relationships. Its never been okay for me actually, cause all the time i always thinking of her, but still, nothing good will ever happen if we were ever together again.

I actually still hurt, due to my past. i guess i never suited for any relationship, thats why i never had any during school, lucky me.

its been very long since i last talked to her. i remembered she called me during my birthday, i was actually happy cause she did call to wish me. but i was sad also, thinking that i will never be with her anymore.

its maybe my fault that we never able to be friend again since i did something bad after we break up, but still, if given a choice, i will never try to be friend with you.again..cause it hurt so much to think that i will never be with you.

i been watching you all the way.. i see you move on..well,good for you.hope you will be happy with you new life, and don't make the same mistake again..

as for me,i'm still hanging here.still being haunted by the memory..looking for someone that can take me down slowly.

Lesson 4 : Don't you care?

just want to post some videos. actually i like the songs is because my friend sings it when we were stressing out to study for our exam. he said, if u don't know how to answer,then just sing to the teacher this, 'i don't know~a~a~a, i don't know a~a~a.
it somehow cool down the stress i felt during that time. and only now i know,this is the song he sings,but of course,different lyrics..

Lesson 3 : don’t look at the person, listens to what they say

I often saw that, whenever someone is giving an advice to people, they usually try to see the person first. If that person somehow is a professor, a doctor, a singer, an actress (maybe?), then  they will started to listens to what they have to say. Even though maybe there are some facts that’s just are made up one.

For me, I prefer just to take what everyone has to say, and then I take note of what they say, after that I try to look for the truth behind those words. Since nowadays people like to made up stories, facts, and what worse, they make it like its real.

I often confuse whether to trust or not the facts that I read in the internets. When that’s happen, I might just wait for someone who has more knowledge to crack all those things. For e.g. like the use of ‘Salam’, I has read in facebook that using only those words is haram.  It makes me thinks, for what reasons they say that it is haram to use Salam. Then they give out some phrase from Quran, but bad for them, they only translated it half way. So it does sound wrong when translated.

Em, I guess that enough for internets. What I really want to write is about people who are giving good advices, but none of them were taken just because they made some mistake, or maybe they just not popular enough, and maybe they just ordinary people, but with smart idea.

But somehow, it’s a good idea also to judge the ‘book by its cover’ right, for e.g. who really wants to take some advice from someone that is drunken or crazy. I think nobody would want that. For me, dealing with drunken people really piss me off. I don’t know where they got all the strength after being so drunk like that. Its kind of funny to remember I hang out with some friends and they got drunks. They became so annoying after that. Luckily there was no trouble at all.

p/s: I kind of notice, I often seems to talk about something else when indeed i want to write something that related to my topics. I don’t think I deliver my point. Oh well, its for my own satisfaction. Who reads this anyways,right.. 

Lesson 2 : Is life really like a wheel??

'Don't give up, life is like a wheel, it will keep rotating. Sometime you goes up, and sometime you goes down.'This phrase is actually true, but not for those who are not moving.

the wheel is a round object. so it is easier for them to move. different from us, we are not completely round, so to move, it is a little hard (for me??)

what do the people means when they say this quote is, you need to keep on moving. if you're not moving,you will be down forever.

this wheels on the ground.not moving

the things is, i really like this quote. because somehow, its tell me to keep on moving, to see how things will go for you once you up there. its funny because maybe some people things, if they just sits there and doing nothing, they will go up. even the wheel wont move if you don't start to move it.

but still, changes takes time. if u try to change so drastically, u might won't be able to stand the changes u made. if somehow u made it,congrats to u. cause Gods has made it that everything will work on His order. if u ever try to skip that order, u will never make it. thats why i think changes should be taken slowly,but steady.

try to think of a building. how many days,weeks, months or even year they took to finish it. but to destroy the building, how many seconds did they spend to take it down.

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Lesson 1 : Just be Yourself ?

to think that i have the mood to write about something again,thats just not me. i mean , i'm not so into writing and yet, here am i, doing something that is not me.

lot of us may have heard this phrase,"Just be yourself",but how many of us really take those words into practice. did i? i don't know. what that suppose to mean(or means?,a bit confuse about this words). is it wrong to be someone else. to have someone that u want to follow,as ur guideline. meh, i don't think so.

Meh,dont be..

i have lived for about, 20++ like that, and still i'm kind of confuse of who am i. i means(or mean),its not that i'm not myself,but is it really i am suppose to be. be myself??even if thats means(and again) i'm just a man thats is afraid to take the risks and just letting go of something ( maybe someone) because of i think i don't deserve it..
no right..

what i really mean (i better check later) is, if u think urself is just some crappy guy who never did anything right, then please,by any means, don't be urself. what u should do is change urself to some awesome cool guy, like me  
and than it is okay to be urself..

God has given you one face, and you make yourself another.  ~William Shakespeare