Lesson 6 : I wasn't for you,You weren't for me

 It funny how life can change

In just a year

Many things has happened

But for me

Mostly there are bad things that happens

But still , here am I

Still standing , even though the road was a bit harsh for me

But I choose to move on..

Yes, I know maybe someone will just come and told me,

It my own fault that I fall that way,

I choose to fall, and you just can do nothing about that,

All that talk that you give me, sometimes it just made me annoyed,

Cause you just talk, you not in my shoes,

How would you say you know what I 'm going through,

You not me, you don’t know how it feels..

But still, I have to thanks all of you that care for me,

Cause yeah, even though sometimes the words are hurting,

But most of the time it still motivate me,

To just keep on pressuring myself,

And yes, still I slipped somehow,

Cause during that time,

I still has some problem within me

A love that I couldn’t forget,

No matter how many times it hurt,

Still it is unforgettable,

Even after seeing something that I don’t want to see

Still there is love for that someone

But it alright now,

Just go on with you way,

I will not  chasing you anymore,

Cause is it useless to chase someone,

Who wont stop no matter how hard you hold her,

No matter how you do,

She will still run away,

Cause it just the way she is..

Nah , enough with all this

Is not that I'm still thinking about this,

It just that I regret it so much,

Because just how this one decision I make,

Ruining almost everything in my life..

I accept all of this as a lessons for me,

Yeah , it is very valuable lessons,

And I don’t think I want to go all over it again,

I don’t think I can stand for it again ,huhu..

Skipping Lesson : Part 2

Kali ni nak buat post dalam bm. Sebab banyak ayat yang nak dipakai untuk luahan hati kali ni tak tahu nak translate macam mana..huhu..

Sebenarnya nak cakap tentang hari ibu. Dalam fb,blog, dan vlog, nampak ada ramai yang wish mak dorg sempena hari ibu ni. Aku suka benda-benda macam ni. Dia buat kita lebih hargai apa yang kita ada. Tapi apa yang aku tak berapa senang sangat sebenarnya bila tengok ada orang yang tulis camni,"buat apa nak sambut hari ibu,hari-hari pun hari ibu.kenapa nak bagi satu hari special utk ibu ko". Bagi aku orang yang tulis macam ni fikiran dia sempit, tak pun dia duduk dengan ibu dia setiap hari.

berlainan dengan aku,aku duduk jauh dari ibu aku. So, aku tak dapatlah nak bagi pape yang special utk ibu aku setiap hari. Tapi aku tetap ingat mak ayah aku setiap hari,walaupun aku jarang call dorang. Aku tak suka dorang yang cakap macam tu sebab dorang macam kondem orang yang sambut hari ibu tu. Bagi aku,tak salah menggembirakan ibu kita. Lagipun rasanya ibu kita sendiri tahu bila hari ibu (mgkin ada jg yang tak tahu) dan bila kita wish kat ibu kita,bukankah kita telah menggembirakan ibu kita. Bagi aku,aku jenis tak banyak cakap sangat,jadi aku tunggu jela hari-hari macam ni untuk cakap kat mak aku,yang aku sayangkan dia.

Lepas tu,boleh-boleh plak aku terbaca satu artikel yang cakap sambut hari ibu ni haram. Aku sedih gila dengan pemikiran orang-orang melayu kita sekarang ni. Terlalu paranoid dengan benda-benda macam ni. Aku harap kalau orang yang percaya pun dengan benda ni,tolongla jangan pergi cakap benda ni dengan mak korang bila mak korang tanya kenapa korang tak wish dia(aku tak rasa mak korg akan tanya pun kalau korg x wish,btl tak?). Sebab korang macam secara tak langsung akan cakap yang mak korang ni jahil agama, yang memang akan buat mak korang sedih. Tapi tak tahulah plak kalau mak korang akan pikir yang tahap agama korang dah terlampau tinggi,sampai mak korang respect korg sbb tu..

Tapi apapun, main point yang aku nak cakap kat sini adalah tak salah sambut hari ibu. Kita ni sebagai manusia,kita ada sifat pelupa. Sebab tu kena sentiasa diingatkan. Rasa-rasanya Allah wajibkan solat 5 waktu tu untuk apa.Supaya setiap hari kita ingat Allah.Allah tahu makhluk-Nya ni sifat macam mana.Kena sentiasa diingatkan. Bila dah ada benda-benda macam ni,kita diingatkan tentang betapa berharganya ibu kita. Sedangkan ada hari macam ni pun ada orang lagi yang tak nak hargai ibu dia,cuba kalau takde. Tengok berapa kali je korang akan layan ibu korang macam korang buat masa hari ibu ni. Kan elok sambut hari ibu,semua buat ucapan best2 utk gembirakan mak dorang.

Rasanya tu jela kot..dan untuk penutup,saya nak ucapkan selamat hari ibu untuk mak saya. Terima kasih kerana jaga saya dari kecik sampai besar. Jadi teman berbual saya,buat lawak2 dengan saya,saya gembira bila dengan mama..thanks ma..

Skipping Lesson : Part 1

now addicted to Dewa songs..
'Sedang ingin bercinta'..haha..Quite an old school songs..

Lesson 5 : Being single

Its been a long time since i'm being single. It does feel kind of weird to get rid of the feeling that i feel when i was in relationships. Its never been okay for me actually, cause all the time i always thinking of her, but still, nothing good will ever happen if we were ever together again.

I actually still hurt, due to my past. i guess i never suited for any relationship, thats why i never had any during school, lucky me.

its been very long since i last talked to her. i remembered she called me during my birthday, i was actually happy cause she did call to wish me. but i was sad also, thinking that i will never be with her anymore.

its maybe my fault that we never able to be friend again since i did something bad after we break up, but still, if given a choice, i will never try to be friend with you.again..cause it hurt so much to think that i will never be with you.

i been watching you all the way.. i see you move on..well,good for you.hope you will be happy with you new life, and don't make the same mistake again..

as for me,i'm still hanging here.still being haunted by the memory..looking for someone that can take me down slowly.

Lesson 4 : Don't you care?

just want to post some videos. actually i like the songs is because my friend sings it when we were stressing out to study for our exam. he said, if u don't know how to answer,then just sing to the teacher this, 'i don't know~a~a~a, i don't know a~a~a.
it somehow cool down the stress i felt during that time. and only now i know,this is the song he sings,but of course,different lyrics..